Well, I couldn't stand the job at the call center so I quit. Well now I am jobless and searching. I don't really feel worried but I do feel confused on where I'm going in life. I am thinking of doing computer programming instead of computer animation. I love modeling and stuff, but I just don't want to do it for a career.

So I'm really confused, but I'm sure I'll find a solution somewhere

Yes she is. I've been dating my boyfriend for 2 months now but it seems like I've been with him for 2 years. I know I'm in love with him and he knows it. We have told eachother that we are in love and i know he loves me. He is so sweet. He even rollerbladed for 30 minutes at 1:00 in the morning to see me twice already. It's such a weird feeling to be in love, but awesome. It's like, I feel whole when he's around. I'm horrible at expressing emotions directly though. Hes gotten upset with me because I don't tell him when something's wrong. I am working on that though. I love my boyfriend and I want to keep him around for a long time so I will do whatever I need to do, even get used to expressing myself when even I'm scared of my own emotions.

I guess this was just a little expression in itself. I'm just soo much in love rightnow I had to say something. I should go now. I'm on a work computer and could get fired if I'm caught on the internet.

Sorry I haven't uploaded any artwork. I did find a scanner though. My boyfriend has one at his house he's going to let me use. I"m going to go there this weekend hopefully. I"ve just been so busy lately and a lot has been playin on my mind. Me and my boyfriend had a rough weekend but things turned out very good in the end. I love the guy to death. I"m thinking I might go to updating my live journal but that's if I can get on a computer enough to do that. I have had quite the interesting few weeks. My job is going good. I'm making abot 600 every two weeks, which is a lot when the only thing you have to pay out is 475 in rent and bills. so I hve like, 800 to spend on whatever I want. I'm gonna save up and buy a computer I think> but I am going to go and get a tattoo in the middle of this month. I've wanted one for a while so I"m gonna get one. I know what they feel like so no worries about explaining the pain to me. ^^

I am sorry that I've been offering my artworrk and yet haven't uploaded any yet. It's all in getting a hold of a computer and finding the time now.

I dropped out of my school. I know longer go to CATO (or The Center) as they are calling it now. I work 8 hrs a day now at my job, so at least I will be able to pay my rent. My boyfriend might move in with me when :devfire-aurora: moves back to Arizona to be with her boyfriend. I hope he does. I don't care if I have to pay the entire rent (he goes to CATO too) I just want him near by.

well, not much else to say now except that I might be getting a computer soon. I know I"ve been promizing artwork but man, I have been way to stressed out of my mind to think aobut it. don't worry. I will have artwork up soon

That's what I'm going to do today. My heart is just not into this whole 3D thing. I'm not bad at it, I'm just so far behind there is no light at the end of the tunnel anymore and I can't find a decent job with my school hours. I'm nearly half a month late with my rent and I'm so stressed right now It's making me physically sick. I know where I can get a job immediately, but it conflicted with school hours but now I'm going there after I talk with the program advisor at my school. I'm not a quitter, I just don't like spending 15,000 doing something I don't want to do anymore.

*sighs*